WHY ME?

Heyyya'all!! I apologize for the long absence- I was going through some of the greatest challenges of my life :)  During these days, I felt as if my world was about to end but due to the prohibition of suicide, 🙂 only one line came on loop in my heart- WHY ME??? I think that sounds familiar to you as well. As always, after getting better, I researched why people think such things during hard times - no one thinks like that when everything goes according to plan and they are getting everything they desire. If we looked closer at this instance, wouldn't it make sense to do the opposite? Do we live in a multiverse? 👀

Are we selfish? 

We might come to this conclusion since we only look back when we lose what we have. We Homo sapiens love to regret more than achieve- Dead people receive more flowers than living ones because regret is stronger than gratitude. In short, regretting makes one remember themselves. Most of us believe that God loves testing us, but the reason behind these tests is humans' so-called "regretophilic" nature. When we get everything we want and everything goes on our way, at some point, we forget that divine element- mentally, not verbally. In other words, to remind you, God is making some incredible strides and he really enjoys the "WHY ME" thingy!!!

How does it feel like?

Now, rewind to how it felt- getting upset on the ground, feeling the heartbeat slow down, listening to solemn stillness outside, and screaming out loud from within. You don't wanna see your loved ones, and you neither wanna share what you feel nor wanna keep everything inside you. From faking tears so that parents don't scold you, to hiding real tears so that parents do not question you, we all grew up :) If you are not going through such right now, you won't be regretting what you went through, but rather be thankful for all the lessons it taught you- 'cause dark times teach you a lot!

Why do we feel good after this?

Everyone has gone through something that has changed them in a way that they could never go to the person they once were, in short- to update you on the latest and best version of yourself. If an egg is broken by an outside force, life ends. If broken by an inside force, life begins. You see, great things always begin from the inside.

Why Me ?? ●'◡'●

Still, you have yet to get an answer to this right? It's just simple- God has chosen you, he has his eyes on you. He is watching you more than before and he is focusing on you. He is trying to remind you that it's time to turn the page of your life and start a new chapter. I know it's hard to turn the page when you know someone won't be in the next chapter, but the story must go on.

After all, we must realize one thing- if you are not always happy, it doesn't mean you don't have a good heart. You may have heard that a good heart will always be happy, but I think it usually gets hurt very badly because it expects only good things from others. So first, stop checking up on them- just let them go in peace. It's time to shift your focus on your goals, grind, and glow- THE SHOW MUST GO ON!!! <3